It’s almost here. The attorney filed the divorce papers with the court clerk 2 days ago. I saw the address of my soon-to-be ex. I knew. There were several problems during the relationship. For some reason, I don’t know why, I feel numb.
I’ve waited. I … No! I am not going to mourn what I have already mourned. I’m done. I have a beautiful life. I am surrounded by people who love me and I love them. I have a beautiful home that I am filling with love and blossoming flowers. I am studying all the topics I have questions about and want to experience. I can plan all I want. I can work all I want. I can rest all I want. I can help others all I want. I can encourage myself. I can be me.
I had a few questions in my teen years that I didn’t explore then but have the opportunity to explore now—Who am I? What do I like to do? What do I want? I am smiling now that I have the opportunity to discover and explore and expand/develop the answers to these questions. I am an explorer—I like to ask questions and find answers. I take pleasure in education of the mind, body, and spirit. I love my God and am excited about what He has already shown me and what is to come.
Thank You, Jesus, for the freedom to be me.